Nope, not gonna allow myself, just can't do it!

So yeah, this last week was another bad and ugly one.  No workouts and very little eating good.  This weekend wasn't much better.

Saturday morning I did the burst exercising again on the treadmill but that was it.  We had pizza and ate out and generally didn't eat well at all.  The best meal we had was breakfast Sunday morning and even that wasn't the greatest: scrambled eggs and bacon with toast slathered in margarine. 

As far as I know we have no plans for tonight to go anywhere so as long as nothing changes my plan is to get on the elliptical.  Luckily I'm nowhere near as sore as I was last Monday after doing the bursting.  In fact there's very little that hurts so I'm gonna say that even though I hadn't done anything else throughout the week my body was still able to adapt well enough that doing it all over again a full week later still didn't put the same kind of stress on it as I figured it would.  So that's a good thing.

At one point early last week I weighed myself again and I was up to 190.  WHAT! NO FUCKING WAY!!  But yeah, actually I can totally believe it especially since I'm feeling so much worse in my clothes.  When I weighed again on Thursday I think it was, maybe Friday, I was back down to 188.  I meant to weigh myself this morning but I was running really late so I'll have to make a point of it tomorrow. 

I so cannot let myself get up to my highest weight again which was 209.  I just can't do it, hell, I can't let myself get up to 200 even.  NO!  Just NO!