So, yeah, I wish I could just eat whatever and do whatever and still be able to lose weight. But since that's impossible I'll just have to make myself do the right thing.
My goal is twofold. I want to lose wight to look and feel better about myself and I want to lose weight to be more healthy. My last physical I was just fine in all ways: no high blood pressure, no high cholesterol, no diabetes, etc., etc. But that was, admittedly, several years ago. Who knows what any of that would be now. Although the blood pressure is still fine, that's been taken every time I've gone to my gynecologists office. Even though I feel like I'm all good you just never know. But what I do know is losing weight will make me more healthy.
So, this blog will be a place I can come to bitch about what it's taking me to lose the pounds. It'll be a place I can track the amount I'm losing and what I'm doing exercise wise. And if I make a point to update it every day or as often as possible anyway I think it'll keep me more honest.
I have the Lose It app on my iphone which definitely helps but there are times that I want to rant or even just purge and I can't do that on there. Such as.....
I finally got back on the elliptical last Saturday, although I wanted to do the treadmill but it wouldn't work (again). Plugged in what I wanted to work off (425 calories) and after doing the cool down I burned off 460.0 exactly. Pretty nice. I took Sunday off, because I'm lazy like that. Yesterday after work I had HDiTty fix the treadmill because I wanted to use it rather than the elliptical and then ended up not being able to use it. All because he was on WOW doing some campaign thingy with a big group and I wouldn't be able to turn up the tv to be able to hear once the machine started going. But I let him know that was the reason so tonight he'll either just have to deal or not go on any campaigns because I'm definitely getting on the damn thing.
And yes, there are other things I could do to exercise and I plan on doing those other things as well but when I do them I'm not able to keep myself at it. When I get tired of doing the reps with the weights or I get tired jumping rope or I get tired with the lunges I just quit. I don't push myself. With the elliptical and the treadmill I'm able to keep going. I can look at the calories or the time and say I only have so much longer to go to reach my goal and it won't take me long to do that so just stick with it and I do. With those other things there's not much of a goal. Sure I can put a time limit or a rep limit but it's still so much easier to just say fuck it and quit. I think mainly because I don't have the visual to reinforce what I'm doing. There's no calorie count or time count or mileage count to be able to look at and say I'm doing good and there's not much longer to go.
And I've learned that if I'm not exercising I don't make myself eat better. It's the whole guilt thing I think, I feel guilty if I eat "bad" foods while exercising. At least more than what I should of them. I know enough that I can't cut out of my life any of the foods I really like because I do what the experts say you'll do and end up binging at some point. But I am good with putting into the Lose It app the foods I eat so it'll calculate the calories I'm eating so I know when I have to stop or how much of those potato chips I can have or cookies or whatever. Because damn do I have a sweet tooth and salty tooth. And putting those two things together (hello chocolate covered pretzels!) is a deadly combo for me.
I want to lose at least 50 pounds. If I lose a bit more than that, well, more power to me. But I don't think I'll need to. That'll put me right around what so many of the charts say would be good for me. BMI and ideal weight charts. Right now, as of the other day I had gotten back up to 184.7 pounds. I'm 5'3". Per the BMI chart I'm obese. But just into the obese section at least. If I can get back down to 165 I'll be in the overweight section.
Sure that's 20 pounds and it sounds like a lot but in 2009 I got down to 162.7 from 188 by eating right and exercising. And the only work out I did was the elliptical and walking fast during the day at work. I did that in less than 5 months. Then I quit my job and sat on my ass for 5 months basically and gained almost all of it back. Since then I've been fluctuating between 180 and 183. But when I weighed myself the other day and I was up to 184.7 I knew right then and there I had to get back on the horse - no more excuses. I'm sitting here in my jeans feeling awful and when I look in the mirror I see where it's coming back.
Ok, I believe I've rambled enough for the first entry. I'm outta here.
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